[Free] Hip-Hop Beat "Nightmares" - Was possibly one of the worst beats I ever decided to release. It was a very simple beat sampled from the classic, "Bumpy's Lament." Before this, I was making beats as "Matty" at the time, I wanted to branch out. I wanted to be able to do more without associating myself directly to the art.

I made a note pad, taking inspiration from Kid Cudi, I decided to make a new name that was inspired by him. I put down Kid *blank*, coming up with around 10 names. One was "Kid Destiny." I really liked the name because I love the word "destiny." But it sounded too broad, or something in my mind just didn't like it. Until days later, I stumbled upon the word;

kis·met

/ˈkizmət,ˈkizˌmet/

noun

destiny; fate.

Kismet is a Turkish word from the early 1800s that originates from the Arabic word, "qisma." I don't know why, but the concepts of fate and destiny always intrigued me. So I decided on using the word, and using "Kidd" to be unique.

September 1st, 2018... the second song released included vocals. "Sirens"

That song also utterly sucked. But, it was the first song I had ever made that included vocals. Then throughout the next several years, I'd drop TOO MANY songs. At the time, I genuinely liked them.

December 15th, 2018... the album "Good Kid, Bad Vices" was released.

23 songs long, it was a ton of songs I made doing all-nighters. Just about all my music was some hard-headed shit that sounded like every other soundcloud rapper, I said whatever sounded cool. For that reason, while almost all my old music is private, there is a partial re-upload of the closing track, "Wxrds," and the sixteenth track "suicidal tendencies" is still public. While that song is also bad, I think is speaks to how I was at the time. Those 2 songs are outliers compared to my usual music, that's why I'm content with them being up.

May 7th, 2019... "Cloud" was released. It would be the last song released for a long time.

My favorite song since 6th grade is J.Cole - Fire Squad. One of the last verses speaks on white rappers being part of the culture, and the reality of that being harmful. Along with that, 1985 was released in 2018. Listening to those songs again and again, at one point I thought about what I was doing. My music was purely ignorant, a lot of it being "rage music" and shit that really didn't represent me, maybe it was a persona inspired by my friends and surroundings. Nevertheless, I came to hate it.

I came to realize that if I was going to keep rapping, I'd have to be true to myself.

September 5th, 2020... "Nerves" was released. The first song in my new style.

As a dramatic improvement in terms of reality, nerves was so much more than my old music. Shortly after, "save me, from me" was also released. It would be the last public song released for 1,319 days.

July 13th, 2022... "lost hope." is released.